1/17/2020

Three Interviews and a Fundraiser

I've had several recent opportunities to share my lung cancer story and to advocate for more research funding.  It just happened that these three interviews were released so close together that I am sharing all with you in one post.

Team Draft Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge

I took the challenge this year.  I've been fundraising for Lung Cancer Colorado Fund to support the groundbreaking lung cancer research and treatment developments at the University of Colorado Lung Cancer program.  I earned the chance to go to the Pro Bowl to experience the events while I share my lung cancer story and advocate for awareness and lung cancer research funding.  Click HERE or the Pro Bowl logo to see a Team Draft video about my fundraiser.
 

You can help me reach my $50,000 fundraising goal .  Click HERE or the donate button to submit a tax deductible donation today. Donations can be made through Super Bowl Sunday, February 2, 2020. 
            

Living Lives with Lung Cancer website interview

LLwLC is a website focusing on lung cancer patients and survivors living and thriving in spite of their diagnosis.  I'm lucky enough to be one of the first to be interviewed.  I can't wait to see and read upcoming inspirational stories from fellow lung cancer patients. Click HERE or the zipline photo collage to read my interview.

Cincinnati radio/podcast interview

Melissa and I recorded this interview in November 2019.  I think it was originally an hour and ten or twenty minutes long.  The Medical Apocalypse doesn't really have a Cliff's Notes version.  Melissa did a wonderful job editing that down for the show.  you can hear the interview HERE or click this video.




12/03/2019

Joe Thomas Cameo Enouragement Dec 2019


This is so freaking cool!I  received my Joe Thomas Cameo today.  I requested encouragement for my Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge. 

I've watched this enough today I've lost count.  It  smilemakes me every time.  😁

12/02/2019

Cyber Monday Discount Giving Tuesday Purpose


Cyber Monday:

UPDATE: Use prmo coade GIVING10 for 10% discount.  Expires 12/7/19.
Peace Lungs & CLE shirts are available.  Place your order today.  Your Cyber Monday Promo Code is:CYBER10 Offer expires on Tuesday Dec 3, 2019. Click on a shirt or HERE to order.  All proceeds will be donated to the Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge.

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Giving Tuesday

Giving Tuesday is coming. Please consider making a tax deductible donation to the Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge.

90% of funds go to life saving lung cancer research. 10% will help Team Draft continue their mission of changing the face of lung cancer with awareness and #survivorship and
providing lung cancer patients, survivors and their families exciting, memorable  moments away from medical appointments, cancer centers and living with lung cancer.

Your donation, of any amount,  may provide the funds needed to research or develop a new lung cancer  treatment. It will brighten my day, put a smile on my face and could possibly provide me with a trip to Super Bowl LIV, the Pro Bowl or the Taste of the NFL. These trips are awarded to the top three fundraisers. As I post this, I am currently in second place, only by a hair.  All three trips would be a trip to Florida in the middle of winter.  I would love some fun in the sun.

The Super Bowl Challenge has given me a focus with an obtainable goal, high but obtainable.  After the past couple years and recent months of recovering from personal devastation and difficult times, the challenge is a wonderful distraction with a possible outcome of a reward and trip away from my everyday reality, challenges and hurdles with lung cancer, progressive brain disease and recovering from a hemorrhagic stroke.


Please donate, share my fundraiser link with everyone
and put positive thoughts, prayers and energy into the universe. 

11/08/2019

What is LCAM?


November is LCAM. 

What does that mean?  

Here's my latest article for lungcancer.net that breaks it down and explains the campaign and it's origins.
Lungcancer.net

11/04/2019

2020 Lung Cancer Survivor Super Bowl Challenge Kickoff

Because of everyone's generosity, I raised $374 for my challenge.


I kicked off my 2020 Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl challenge fundraising campaign at the Cleveland vs Broncos game in Denver on Sunday, November 3, 2019.

It was a beautiful day.  The sun was shining, I got to introduce myself, share my lung cancer story, information about lung cancer Awareness Month and my participation in this year's Super Bowl Challenge.  So many tailgaters were more than generous with their time and money.  Browns fans and Broncos fans as well.  It goes to show, no matter which team we root for, we all agree that lung cancer (or any cancer)sucks.
More photos of #CLEvsDEN tailgating HERE.

I have until December 30, 2019 to reach my $50,000 fundraising goal.  Please donate HERE.  No amount is too small.  Every dollar counts, even when you make a minimum donation.


11/02/2019

Meaningful Football

Meaningful football to me this week:It's the Cleveland Browns playing a do or die game in Denver.  It means, possibly turning this season around in Week 9, although, a bit late in the season. It means, beating a top rival, again, at Mile High. It means bonding with my Browns football family while tailgating like we are in the Muni lot and watching the Browns in person instead of on TV.

It also means It's Lung Cancer Awareness Month, the kickoff of the Team Draft Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge.  I'm anxiously waiting the details of this year's challenge because I have set a $50,000 fundraising goal.  I'm super excited to get started!  Yes, fifty thousand dollars.  Top challenge participants have set the bar high.  It's time for me to join their ranks.  I'll share the details in a future post. 

Meaningful football 2015/2016 Season:The NFL preseason was underway in August 2015.  It was the dawn of a new era for the Browns. My football family and I were reunited after a long summer without football to watch games and cheer the Browns through another season.  Like many years before and every season after, we had hope, we believed.

I was diagnosed with stage IV, non small cell lung cancer during preseason on August 14, 2015.  At that point it was, by far, the most devastating, emotionally draining and excruciatingly difficult time of my life.  But what did I do the night before finding out the stage of my lung cancer and what my prognosis and treatment plan would be? I attended a Browns preseason game with the Pikes Peak Browns Backers in Colorado Springs, CO.

Meaningful football since lung cancer:
Dec 9, 2018

All football is meaningful to me since my lung cancer diagnosis. Even in the losing seasons, I am grateful for football and my Browns Backers family.  The Browns and the Pikes Peak Browns Backers have been with me since day one of my lung cancer diagnosis.  They have provided me with the support, needed distractions and events to keep my mind off of everything involved in a lung cancer diagnosis and fight.


I had a lot of fatigue, some pretty uncomfortable and painful side effects when I started my first line of lung cancer treatment.  I had times I was scared to leave the house. But I would get up, get dressed, in orange and brown, and still go to watch the Browns play with my local Browns Backers club.  That's how important the Browns are to me. That's meaningful football.

Tackling lung cancer, Dec 9, 2018

Meaningful football NFL Week 14, Dec 9, 2018:

It was a chance to go to Cleveland and an opportunity to attend the Panthers vs. Browns game with Team Draft. I live in Colorado.  Before December 9, 2018, I had only been to one Cleveland Browns home game.
A brief uncle and niece Dawg Pound reunion, Dec 9, 2018

That weekend was amazing.  Not only did I get to personally witness the Browns win at home, it was the 1 year anniversary of surviving a hemorrhagic stroke.  I got tears in my eyes when I was in the stadium and watched the Browns take the field that day. I get emotional today thinking about that moment.  I was alive. I was standing. I was walking. I made it through the toughest year of my life. Not only did I survive the stroke and make miraculous improvements in my recovery over the year, I did it all with late stage,  stage iv, terminal, lung cancer.
Please donate to the 2020 Lung Cancer Survivors Super Bowl Challenge









7/03/2019

Here WEGO


I started blogging about my experiences of being diagnosed and living with terminal stage IV lung cancer in 2016, approximately six months after my diagnosis.  I continued to blog as I was diagnosed in 2017 with Moyamoya, an incurable ultra rare brain disease, and after my hemorrhagic stroke.

The stroke was my third major life threatening incident in just over two years.  Somebody referred to my multiple diagnoses, struggles and deficits as a "medical apocalypse".  That term was more than accurate. I amended the name of my Peace Lungs and Happiness blog in 2018 to it's current title, Peace Lungs and Happiness: Anatomy of a Medical Apocalypse.

After three years of blogging, I am a nominee for the 2019 Best in Show Blog at the WEGO Health Awards.  It's an honor to be among my fellow nominees for this award.
About the WEGO Awards:
The WEGO Health Awards program was created to recognize and honor those making a difference in the online health community. It provides the opportunity for community members to thank and support the Patient Leaders and patient-centric initiatives they admire. Since its inception in 2011, the WEGO Health Awards have proven to be one of the best ways to connect the healthcare industry with top patient influencers. It is the only awards program that recognizes Patient Leaders across all condition areas and platforms, with over 4,000 nominations in 2018 alone!

I need your endorsement.
Winning this award will bring opportunities for me to present my story to others, promote patient advocacy and to share my patient expertise on patient panels, roundtables and at conferences while working with lung cancer, neurology and brain injury industry leaders.

At the end of July, the top three endorsed nominees in my category become automatic finalists for the award.

Please click HERE or go to https://awards.wegohealth.com/nominees/15977 to view my WEGO Patient Leader Profile.  From there you can endorse my nomination by clicking the Endorse Lisa Moran button under my profile pic.
Lisa Moran's Patient Leader Profile on the WEGO website

5/23/2019

Rollercoasters

Life with lung cancer is a rollercoaster.  But for me,  I've been on two or more different rides at the same time since my first major medical diagnosis of stage IV lung cancer in 2015.  With so much going on at once, I seemed to have tended to one ride while another ride was taking over my life, health and emotions.  And this all was happening without me recognizing that anxieties and depression had engulfed my thoughts, my physical being and my normally positive outlook on life.

I knew to keep my head on a swivel at construction job sites and while I delivered mail, working around traffic.  It recently came to light that I need to keep my head on a swivel in my medical life as well as my personal and  mental health lives as well.

HERE  is my latest article, Rollercoasters,  for lungcancer.netwww.lungcancer.net.

Click picture for article.

4/02/2019

This Is Me

My Medical Apocalypse has allowed me to connect with many people and communities on many levels.  I've been able to find others with similarities to my own experiences when they share their fights and struggles.

When I find these connections it makes my own fight and struggles a little easier.  Knowing I'm not the only one helps me. Hearing and learning about others surviving stage IV Lung Cancer, recovering from stroke and living with Moyamoya gives me a sense of community,  guidance to face difficult situations and inspiration to carry on.

This Is Me is my latest article for Lungcancer.net.  it touches on how finding people that share their stories can inspire and unite individuals and communities.

Click HERE to read the article.

3/12/2019

Ignorance is Bliss

March 12, 2019

coming clean
I don't usually share the down sides of my medical life.  I mostly share the positives because, frankly, there have been a lot of great things that have come out my horrible and devastating diagnoses  and medical mishaps. A part of me has the belief that if you verbalize something you give it strength. Then, why would I want to verbalize the negative aspects? But I'm going to share the crap and air my dirty laundry.

soapbox moment
I am disabled and unable to 100% take care of myself.  I can function enough to get by, but I'm doing it with help and guidance of a caregiver.  I'm finding flaws in many systems and organizations that are in place to help the disadvantaged and disabled.  Because I have a whopping $19,000 a year Social Security disability income, I'm not a minor, senior citizen or veteran, I'm living in my own home instead of a nursing home or group home and going to adult day care, I fall in this grey area of qualification for assistance where and when I need it most.  The last few weeks of begging these institutions for help has made me truly realize how and why so many mentally challenged adults are homeless. They fall in that same grey area I'm caught in now.

I expected a full recovery
Things have been hella tough since my December 2017 hemorrhagic stroke.  When I returned home from the California inpatient rehab in January 2018, I was my optimistic self, thinking I would make a total recovery.  I would gain strength, improve movement on my left side, regain my left peripheral vision, I'd return to work as a City Letter Carrier and the cognitive and memory issues would be behind me in no time.

Despite the deficits and disabilities, I have accomplished many great things since my stroke.  Looking back now over the last fifteen months, I can honestly say I don't know how I did it all.  I can say, ignorance is truly bliss. My ignorance to the damage the stroke caused and the deficits I was left with has allowed me to achieve, otherwise, unattainable goals.

I can't do it on my own
I've always been confident in myself, independent and a self starter.  That part of me translated into my stroke world and stroke recovery. I was a big girl and could do anything on my own, stroke or no stroke.  Turns out, I was way wrong.

Even as I continue to improve and learn new life skills,  I struggle to live life without the help of my caregiver, my  boyfriend, Jeremy. I gave Jeremy the title, “Knower of all Things” because he keeps track of my phone,  day planner, clothes, sunglasses, shoes, medications and every physical item I can misplace while also keeping track of my finances, appointments, activities and daily medical and mental conditions, symptoms and side effects.

I have a brain injury.  I am not the organized, multi-tasking person I was before the stroke and I may never be that person again.  I forget words, friend's names, conversations and events and appointments that are even written in my day planner.  I put my clothes on wrong side out or backwards, or even wrong side out and backwards at the same time and not realize it.  I can't remember to put away the refrigerated items after making a smoothie or sandwich. While I can blog and write short articles, each post and submission takes many hours of writing with breaks, naps and sometimes many days to complete.  That's if I remember to complete them at all. I can't tell you the number of incomplete entries I have sitting in my files. I can start things as simple as letting the dog out, loading the dishwasher or showering for the day and lose track of what I am doing.  At times I get so off track that I start new tasks, go to sleep for hours or for the night without ever knowing I left something unfinished. I've lost track of friendships and communications with friends and family because emails and text communications get confusing to follow.

what you don't know can hurt you
My need for independence and and to do things on my own has caused problems in my life.   I was living and happy with my abilities and the things I could accomplish. I didn't comprehend the amount of time that had gone by.  I didn't know I had forgotten important USPS information and items were being overlooked and left incomplete due to my inabilities to understand, remember or to start and complete the smallest of tasks.

This blind faith confidence in myself caused confusion while applying for Medicaid. What should have been a couple hour process was days and weeks of phone calls and emails to try to figure out why I received an approval letter but no Medicaid information or enrollment card.  To tell the truth, I'm not sure I ever received an acceptable explanation. A local agency that helps disabled people said they could only help me with the application process and can't help with other Medicaid issues. How does that make sense?

not comprehending procedures
When I was unable to return to work, I took advantage of the option to keep my health insurance through my employer.  I was covered, reimbursing the USPS for the coverage when they sent me invoices. The plan was to carry the coverage into my disability retirement application process and be covered through retirement.  I started the application process so many times thinking I could do it on my own. I called my HR Department three times over the last year about the disability retirement application. It wasn't until the most recent call, a few weeks ago, that I was told I was not understanding the process and procedures and going about the steps in the wrong order. I was also told there wasn't a program or person in place to help me complete and submit the application.

I have more capabilities now than I have ever had over the last year, but I continue to struggle with completing the application and remembering where I've left off between attempts.  My brain is smart enough to realize I'm getting confused and able to recognize the problems. It's just not smart enough to gather and compile the needed information and documentation to complete the application process.

losing my health insurance coverage
I didn't completely understand the rules of keeping my employer health insurance.  I knew I had to pay the premiums to keep the policy active. What I didn't know was this was only the case within 365 days of Leave Without Pay (LWOP). I received a letter at the end of February notifying me I was past the 365 days and my health and life insurance policies were terminated as of February 1, 2019.

My brain, that was healing and accomplishing so much, had let me down.  I was forced to figure this out and pick up the pieces. I immediately called my HR department. From those calls I was told, in a very blunt but kind way, “Sorry about your luck,  pal.” Rules are rules, no exceptions and no grace periods, even if I was going to file for disability retirement.

I can't go without health insurance. In addition to the stroke,  I'm in treatment for stage IV lung cancer. I tried to navigate the Colorado health insurance marketplace website.  I called for help. I was lucky enough to be connected to the most patient, caring, understanding customer service representative.  Brenda, wherever you are, you're a saint! She explained everything clearly and slowly so I could take notes. She explained things several times until she and I both knew I was understanding.

unable to pay for life saving cancer treatment
My break in health coverage falls in time for my monthly targeted therapy chemotherapy medication refill.  I notified my specialty pharmacy of the change in my insurance situation when it was time to order my tefill.  At first I was told, no insurance, no problem, just pay the $17,000+ for the 30 day supply out of pocket. Then I was given a number for Astra Zeneca.  I was told on the phone I qualify for the AZ and Me free medication program. I just need to fill out an application and have my doctor fax it in. That was a relief.  But the real relief will come when I have that first bottle of medication in my hands.

moving forward
The next step is to complete the ever daunting and confusing federal disability retirement application process.  My brain is healing and now recognizing when I need help. But I am in this grey area of the system. I don't qualify for Medicaid, so I don't qualify for the many programs that could help me in my daily living and possibly help with this application process.  I know I'm not the first federal employee with a brain injury and mental challenges to apply for disability retirement. By the list of organizations and agencies I've contacted from my letter carriers union to The United Way to The Independent Center to The Colorado Cross-Disability Coalition, you would  think I'm the only one that has ever needed assistance to do this.

I worked hard, graduated out of my outpatient therapies and continued to work on my own to accomplish some of my goals, While I have made remarkable strides. The reality is, I have a long way to go if I'm able to make any more improvements at all.  I will continue to work on daily cognitive and memory exercises on my own. I will keep up with my physical activities as much as the weather, my health and energy will allow. I'll keep walking my dog and returning to my swing dance lessons every week to challenge my body and brain to remember the steps and combos throughout the short class time and from week to week between classes.  I will keep chipping away at this disability retirement application and eventually get it completed and submitted with or without the help of any government or nonprofit agencies.

2/21/2019

I'm Winning the Fight

My latest article for lungcancer.net was written while the outcome of a late stage lung cancer diagnosis hit too close to home.

Over a span of just a few days, we lost two important people in our lives to lung cancer.  My boyfriend lost his aunt that treated him more like a son than a nephew and I lost one of my closest friends and lung cancer confidantes.

When someone dies of cancer the horrible cliche,  "lost their battle", is often used.  As these women were transitioning to hospice care and the afterworld, the only thing they were losing was their life on earth.  They won the battle.  With that,  they won the war.

Click the article photo below to read my latest article, "Beating Incurable Terminal Stage IV Lung Cancer". 




2/06/2019

It's We, Not Me

After a lung cancer diagnosis you run into the question,  Is there anything you wish you knew before your diagnosis that you know now? My answers have changed over the years.  Today, my answer is,  I wish I knew how much burden the diagnosis would put on my relationship with my boyfriend.

Lately,  the biggest challenge has been dealing with the ongoing changes and troubles in our relationship after three and a half years of incurable,  terminal,  lung cancer and a hemorrhagic stroke.

 You would think life would get easier and we should be able to ride the wave by now.  For us,  as soon as we think we've got things under control, it only gets harder.  Our basic relationship dynamic is constantly under stress.

Click HERE or the illistration for my latest article in Lungcancer.net.
The article touches on some of what we are dealing with. We have to learn to adapt, rest, recharge and live with lung cancer and all the added crap that life has handed us.


1/15/2019

Skipping out on Life

So many things change and so many variables are factored into a lung cancer diagnosis and trying to find your "new normal".

Sometimes the new normal is the same as life was before lung cancer.

I wrote about this in my newest article
for Lungcancer.net, Skipping Out on Life?

The night I put a flower in my hair, a smile on my face and said, Fuck cancer.