I've wanted to make this blog entry for some time. It's been a working title for weeks. I've been searching for the correct wording and message to convey my feelings without making it sound like a pity party or a guilt trip.
Then this week someone did it for me. I read Linnea Olson's latest blog and it said just about everything I've wanted to say and more.
At times it feels like it's just me and Jeremy against the world, against lung cancer and against the clock. More often than not, lately, it's me against him and him against me. We butt heads over the tiniest of things. In the past we've recognized this behavior and realized it wasn't us. It's the stresses of lung cancer on our relationship. So for those periods of time, it's just me against everything I have and everything I don't have control over.
The next time you see me begging for your support for an upcoming event and we live in the same town, it's not all about the money and donations. It's about needing time together and your presence in my life, how ever long that may be.